Conservative

"Please Help....Lars has SOUL...he needs work, he will touch Light...I want Light...See Her...my name is Michal..."

The naughty dog, sits outside the empty Synagogue, now, for two days a week, you can bet I called everyone; that; I'm in Hell...

The naughty dog sits outside the extra building for 'women only' prayers, in the doorway, smoking a cigarette, with a scarf hastily wrapped round the head...the men here are "very conservative."

"I am too, I'm sick of see-ing men..."

Another girl in my class smokes too...she's married and Asian, everyone in my class here to learn Arabic are Asian...

"Where was I born? I'm a white girl!"

Continually crying to God, and then, not even listening to the white cloud in my eyes, is making me slow and stupid, I spend 45 minutes praying, when I should know vowels, and how to join letters and not mix them up...I just laugh far too loudly, I throw my laugh over the fence seperating us, I wince and sigh and worry when the Adhan starts, and the teacher bends to pray, I make him say, "tha's Good." when I read out the letters, it makes me sick, I hate the use of power that makes people speak, at the lowest level, which means, my english, if I think in English, I'm pretty well-developed in Punjabi, yet I guess the flow of the words I speak, is nonsense; like I've just invented the language...it's hard to stay in silence...

...I jump in peoples beds for Help... I cry

"I'm the guy in the crown, I'm crowned Cohen..." I have a hat, alot like this,


but sometimes it's deep purple (sorrow) sometimes dark green (true love), much like, the first time I saw myself in that hat, I was lying across the floor, and being given a magical hat, rubbing the skin of my face all-over the ground, cut on stones and dirt (mourn Israel).

Then I Hell-Fire, talk, I repeat what Satan did. I have failed everyone, and mostly created nervous breakdowns...

Then I get confused, very confused...

"Are these women real? Who was that man? Who made that happen, I mean a man who thought he was a king and that I was a new wife...and that I swore to kill him, because of everything, and I cursed and cursed him...and that knocked me down...and then I see it was'nt even real..."

Then I don't want to be King, because I have a huge deep black face, for King.

I sat in corner of the station by the pub, in a pool of piss. "Oh well, that's ok."

Then I thought I could kiss this wife, on the train.

Then, I got home, I went to the couple in bed for help...my neck ached because my head was being thrown forward, and my arm went funny, because, I was ;

"Going through a change, they are forcing me to turn into a man, I not your Jesus!! STOP CALLING! I'm a girl...I hate your Jesus..."

Then I was screaming and growling and cursing, and having a fit on the floor. I couldnt get away from the couple, and when I saw him kiss his wife's shoulder, I went nuts, rolling on the floor, and those wings, becoming like a little tree-bush, that kept screaming and fluttering all round my face...And I screamed and cursed them, and vowed to curse them everywhere...then I calmed nad sat on my chair, cross-legged, wearing a crown of thorns, the spikes in my forehead, and I heard voices, and voices that were killing. And I stayed there, for a very small amount of time.

Everyone wept.

Daddy

I had to go back to them,...so we talked:

Baby said:

"Joseph is an old man, you think he is husbands! He is smelly!...Mummy needed help, so he gave her his donkey, the donkey is called -Blackie...He is a Silly donkey...Mummy said when I was born; everyone loved, because i King!!...you are daddy!" ,

she said; "Gabriel?? Where is He? The baby has been born."

"Daddy we love you. Come back!"

I was psychotic; "This is not my child! This is from some-one else! Someone I hate!!"

"You are a witch!"

I had to cool, and I told them stories, I had to go back...no matter what...I can time-travel- I am David, ("Higher King!" 'King of Angels')

They said; "He is Angels, his face!! His beautiful blonde hair!! He is like another race!!! The race of Angels!!!"

Mummy? I'm Daughter

Hashem??

white light: "Jesus was released!"

"You freed..." You are going to Higher God...you brought Christ lights...he laughs at lights...

"Miracles work..."

Lars........let YOU goooooooooooo.......

"He cried let Mumma go......."

Still Moses Queen. You felt the murder..."DId He DIE??"

"He was released..." ???? was he crucified was he crucified..sorry for this sick...

He was the King of Light...and you are nay die...because you King Love...Queen of Love...die...die when they are Why? He went to September...you are mummy Witch...no-one will die...If you see miracles, SWELL!! Because each miracle is well...Summer is well...Do you see where you Jesus Queen?? When women sing...

He was burnt on the cross?? He lept on the horse...You sailed to America France

He was dead, and you skied.

He died at horse.free

free

free

"He ran out of the Trial, and made you free..."

Buster

I thought again, to the shops...

I arrived on the horse, hoping to 'bust Him out!!"

I arrived and said; "Where is my Sire?" and they laughed..."Sire...has burnt in Heaven!"

I screamed; "They are Fascist!!!" I tried to pray him out, when the roof fell down, (because I punched it down) everyone screamed...I think I got crushed in the rubble...He ran out, when everyone died...he was screaming;

"MUMMY!! FLY!!!"

I hopped off the horse, "You are Jewish Bitch..." I sang. I found out He had arrived on the coast, He fled...(he was dressed in a suit) ???

He ran through Jerusalem.

(he was burnt on the cross) He was FREE.

He fled to Arabia. Paul was mean, He said, "I'm sick of Father...they've fled..."

He was set Free.

The thorns came off, he ran through the streets, (he was murdered, because they were vice...)

When Paul cried we were led, he burned. ("this is loon")

I saw Him Luck...he was beaten then rescued...by Holy Power, because I worked a MIRACLE...???...89 Iraqi's set free.."Peasants!" They giggled when Al-Quida called them Peasants...

I knifed a roman,

I went to France, and knew saved...he was 31, when He entered the Heavenly Door, 31 is His SOUL AGE...

??? (this is awful) hopeful...

He said; "Yes, I am Sire Christ, and Mother has been killed...She was killing Vice...Tell Her I'm dead...I died on the throne, I told Allah to go...She loved Allah, I have No...Yahweh has given me a second chance of LIFE, she saved me...she made me run, and I fled the eternal hell...I am singing Christ...thank you for these wed...Allah is flight, he wed me...Mother is souls, she loves Allah No's...She freed me, I have a happy home...I am here for Forever...I am Forever, I am LION...Free-ing me from Hell gave Me Heaven...If I was Crucified, I would die, write I am Crucifed, I never Die...Hate men die...Mummy will think I thrill...I will be Holy Home...I am saved from the Hell, and I have throne...thank you...TO THE COAST!!! 30 COINS, to let me run!!! And Heaven is the cost...I will have a family...Mummy run...Mummy has saved...she is COAST too..." They were high;

"You are going to the coast, to save us!!! Yahweh save us!! Tell Allah he is fearing...you are champion!! He is fearing!! He won't know wise!! He thinks everyone dies!!!...

Dear, Mother of GOD!! YOU ARE SALVATION!!

JESUS IS ALIVE!!! You are praying for ALIVE!!!"

"He is with us!!! We are celebrating..."

"That tomb is thy daughter Jesus...because you are free-ing us!! That man you pray for is David...Yeshua is David..."

Available for 27 Minutes, I Dont Know Why This Is...I Don't Mind See-ing Fool

I wanted to know what happened, I prayed slight brightly, I couldn't changed what happened.


I was laying on the floor, talking to my sister;


"I got a horse!! And Mary of Magdalene said she loved me!! SO the tomb was Lazarus...burden...SO we done a runner, cowgirls lesbians, (([dont like] [found it]like an eternal light!! Suffer Chiles, ruling the world!! Astonishing vapours from the hooves, suck luck, gracious, KING!! Two girls riding the wind, never jews, too God, like whislting birds...I seek Saviour, let the women ride the luck, (Jesus never died, he became, he suffered and these girls; runners [dontlike]) He welcomed Greek and congratulated you in the light, he wrote wonder-light, he is Peter.....))...I am like Peter the Denial...let me think!! Because I said to Him, "Honey, I love you..." and then he died..."


"A little boy was calling God, and there was a daemon beside him, and he giggled when he heard you..."


"I'll look at a map, parallel dimensions...right, gold to Greece, light blue to France, South of France..."Yes! We're going to the Americas!! So, the boys went one way, and me and the girls went another...he was in the cave...Merovingian pigs, so Louis the 1st is my son, and Louis the 9th is my grandfather!! There was NO Crucifixion!!! He is in Arabia?? Please let this be true!! I prayed wonder...""


Later; looking in the mirror, playing stone roses; "YES! I said; in

[ancient french];


"I am le resurrectione, and I am the lit!!" I'm trying to contact one of them and it's difficult...

"Got off the boat!! Please forgive me for asking what happened..."


darkness

And they went and found the tomb opened, and coming near they looked in and saw there a certain young man sitting in the midst of the tomb, beautiful and clothed in a robe exceeding bright. He said to them, Why have you come? Whom do you seek? Him that was crucified? He is risen and gone. But if you do not believe, look in and see the place where he lay, that he is not here; for he is risen and gone where he was sent. Then the women feared and fled.

"Louis said He is dead!! We thought he went to France..." And women, wept, and said; "He is in Paradise...This man is Gabriel's, he is praying for the dead..."

lament

i'm dead, i'm dead, i'm dead,

what gives me these ideas?? tell me??

"The men that think we're sale!! Two jewish men are wriitng in your head..."

"No, I prayed...I prayed we can get away..."

I can see after he was beaten, they let him go and gave him black robes and a horse, because I prayed this...

I'm very alone.

I don't know why these thoughts are here..."They murdered you...we're in black..."

Goodbye...

In Construction

Yeshua appeared again, well, I had to call Him...from the cave, I was intent on INFIDEL DEAD...you never understand what meant Infidel, and you tell me too light...I sang;

Judah Lion, for Him...and gave away three parables.The Golden Cow! and I wrote, this: (baby cousin has one hot hit, on XFM, sweetie sweet)


I thought he just giggled, I said; Please help me!! Even if you are too weak, too high, just take this knife, and help me...I sat outside 78 houses, and I can see the devil-men in each one, kids have been put in danger...I'm praying, I am not God enough, to remain there too long, I'm working out who to kill these devils, I remember my overdose, when the Red Sea parted, (I was high on drugs) it worked! Because I heard a jewish guy yell to God!! It worked when I killed the men who killed jews, I didn't kill enough, they were troops, I destroyed a few troops that were never discovered to be dead, because it was sick, I made them sick, 5,000...I retarded them, with a look, like fire, it burnt their brains, they in mud, in forsests, never found, I wonder what happened when they got home!! they must have been found by their wives with dead brains!!...These men are the sickest, I need this miracle, I want them to suffer too, but they go out, they drink, nothing, nothing, just a little flu...that boy was hurt, I saw men, I'm singing his family, I leave when I feel NO...I've attacked these two men many times...each time I think they are dead...we losing ...I've told everyone, I've said the Jews have forsaken, I'm killing so...I wait to reach the highest light, nothing, and them I try again, and I killed 30,000 perverts...then I find out it hasn't happened...please just finish this...I can see men in my daughter's room, because they see her light is Yahweh's, this happened the first time I held her, when mum was sick, and she was a day old...we were covered in golden light, because I said; I love you, and that was her first smile...I think to mark each house, but the sick-men still get through the door, I've played pipes, to ward away Satan, and my soul changed, I looked like you, thin and bearded...I've covered the houses in light, maybe that was wrong because they would be seen...then, I hide the light...I stab two men, in the back of the neck, I talked to the boy, while I brushed my teeth, and I cut apart their brains, I called a Sepharim, who takes messages, Orphy, he wept beside his bed, I kissed him good night, I prayed his family good rest, I have to hold them, I'm taking them all home, we'll bake a raspberry cake, because he's clever he can cook..."

he said; "Mummy...down...I'm down.........the devil....dead...I'm hiding...(then he began to weep) I'M DEAD!!!!!!!!"

I couldn't hear, I was going crazy with the music at this point, drumming a charge, tapping my legs...

"Every jewish man has died!!!!!!!!"

drumdrum...we can win...kill, kill...help, help...sing sing...

"I left Abba...because I see Him!! I left school and cried Him...Mummy? Don't you know they die?? The Hebrew die, because they are eye..."What is the eye? Does it see God?" I repeated your Love...I repeated Hell...because I said,... Mummy, Jewish LIE!! They see Herod, and think Hail Hailer!!! "Herod; you're LIGHT!!"...thye will find me and I'm dead..."


"I can end this, I can do this...let someone, the girls, let the men, let me go, someone stopped this, I saw them burn, I heard every name that died, and fell to Hell, and then, it didn't happen...I can free the light, I can save the babies...I let hebrew girls hear that word PERVERT!! They don't even know what that word means!! I've killed so many in their soul I will die!!!!!!!!!!!"

My Music:

DEFTONES-ADRENALINE


"Bored" – 4:06
"Minus Blindfold" – 4:04
"One Weak" – 4:29
"Nosebleed" – 4:26
"Lifter" – 4:43
"Root" – 3:41
"7 Words" – 3:43
"Birthmark" – 4:18
"Engine No. 9" – 3:25
"Fireal" – 6:36
"Fist" – 3:35


Elizabeth the 2nd called; Tell Harry, blahblahblah...yeah, whatever...so I said; (in soul) much to my surprise, Hello I am Muhammed...etc...and she called out to her maid;

"Get me everything by the Deftones!!!"

"NO, no, BLUESGRASS, we'd much prefer bluesgrass, american, from the 50's...much more expensive, and interesting to find!!"

"The Book of Rabbi Ishmael the High Priest"

When I lived in a horrible home, with a beautiful garden, I became;

Ishmael.

I chose the name because it was sweet, and Arabic, sounded God, and I was more sure to have success with conversion, than using the name Mohammad, (in respect, and to make men sure, that this was genuine) If they looked at me, they would see, a dark haired tanned man, with curling short hair, black robes, that turned white, and a small hat, showing the colours, of a soul-consensus)

I called the men, I heard in my head...they were evil men, I walked the garden to be sure they could hear me...

I told them God...I said I was Heaven...

They were brutal men, and so I called them; The 'Cartel'...I could see a palace, when I walked into the house, it was my palace, it was made of tall white marble, and at the entrance were hung sky-blue tapestry...sometimes they saw a girl, a tiny, dark haired girl, a version of me, dressed in purple silk, and long toe-curling gold slippers, I called her; Persian Pig...because she was whiny...I said, these were souls of my blood...the Italian man, was calling for Catholic Love, sometimes he flew through the sky into Heaven, to find La Virginas Marias, beautiful Maria!! The Jewish boy, was going to marry the black African girl that taught him cooking, the English was ugly Jack, who spoke to Policeman, about a Muslim guy they had arrested, and cry, He is innocent, let her go, the 'Jack' who knew how to speak English God, but had mousy brown hair, and a terribly spotty face, saved 32 Muslims from being incarcerated...The Police said; "Mate, Jack told me you're cool, he said, he is a boy from Heaven...he does God-work..." "Yes, he is Heaven..."

Sometimes Jesus and Judas appeared, dressed in cloaks, over their heads, very skinny, as though they couldn't find food, I talked in Yeshua's mind, and said; I loved him...I could see shining blue God eyes, I could hear him tell me stories of wandering like this around Jerusalem, I could see a sign in an inn, where he sat like Aragon/Strider, and the discussion was bartering, money for women, coins left on a table, his eyes turning bright red, and where he told the men the money was dead...yes, a parable, which I forget...I talked to Judas straight out, (if this one was Judas...I said; I was;

The Sister of the Brotherhood.

I only said stupid things to Yeshua, and warned him of Lilith who said even stupider things...

I told Judas everything about Yeshua...when I heard the demons would hurt my babies, I roared, and a real lion would run through the long hall of the house, I could see it well...it ran beside me...

Judas, cried I was in the devils, the patients, the men, were hideous, see-ing me in a gray building with a needle in my arm was worse, it mean't the Romans had imprisoned me, and were drinking my blood, I stood in front of a Roman troop, and laughed...I couldn't think of who to overcome them, but I wouldn't Him to know he shouldn't be afraid...
.
Yeshua said;

"He came from Magdala!!! He came to me, I mean, by Magdala, I mean, she was class, she wept, and said Let You Go...she makes me delerious, she told Heathen, I was going to King, that she would cry every man to me, and I hear!!! She says; Let Soul Go!! She is making me delerious...she knows I will die, and she kisses...she saw my death, and wept, she has gathered 2000 men to my door...and they want fight for Heaven Hebrew...she giggles and then she goes...I love Her!! She says she made me a star, the star is His, they cry Sire! We have His!! She says she changes soul...she is mans...I see her soul, it is pure Holy Light...what a woman! What a Woe!!"

When I met the Cartel...I let Ishmael speak and flow...then I heard one man, becoming sure, and I could hear arguements, I was sure he went to brother...they said; we find you, we kill you...it was in two days, I heard a woman, I was rude but I was feeling impressed at being a date for the daughter of the Mullah; "he is girls!! He is gay-girls!! His parents are wise!! They look at me, and smile!!"...I let her hear my parents, hours later I heard gunshot, I was sure they had killed the man who had changed...She cried when I said, she was fat...and then I told her to go...

"Because you are in men who will kill...."

"He left me, he left me, his big-head!! He says Mohammed hate thee!! My father is Mullah dead!! Mahmoud is fag!! I want Ishmaels!!" (this Mahmoud)

Twilight Sad-Reflection of the Television...because...3 million were lifted from Hell, during this song, and entered, a planet filled with animals, flora and fauna...

Mystery Girl

I can see she has eyes and I can see she has hair, but I don't know who she is... she has long hair and dark eyes...she is my pelvis nuts, but I have had no idea who she is...she appears randomly, to call me german bitch, to make my pelvis dance...she's got gold hair...it's the rock music from our souls again.

last night, I worked out who she is.

I had imagined 'Mary' to look like an English woman, like, I must be absolute respect. Like a tall woman, like white, full of solicitude, all prayers and whiteness, but this woman is driving me insane. I wanted to find; "Mummy Mary." I wanted to talk with her while I shopped, I sent her silver and diamond bangels and earrings...but I got the wrong woman.

Bang!! I've entered Time!

Bar Mitzvah.

A tiny beautiful girl is there, dancing in the middle of the room, with her feet splayed, doing this odd little African dance, of kill the white man...and says accusingly to those present; "God is my Lover!!"

So, this is the beginning of the killing. Look at this!! Why do you have to do this??!!

I sit in the garden for ten minutes, bowing up and down;

"Thank you, Yahweh, thank you Yahweh..."

Then I'm back walking around the house, my legs tapping uncontrollably, my hips wiggling...

And I want to cry and cry. Laugh and then laugh...

That Bar Mitzvah, dammit...##we are both insane...

29 AD:

We were fine. Then Yeshua said;

"I've called the devil."

My angel-wings turned bright red...stupid bastard!!

We told him to leave. He left.

He went wandering...He found a cave, he ate 17 women, then he drank a mane. I appeared from rehab, I wanted bed. I loved him, so I waited for the bed. That weird woman I made appeared, she kept talking insanely in his head, he kept giggling...I told her to go. I said, there are drugs in the locusts, eat the locusts. I killed the devil. We didn't bed.

His friends were devils. Gabrielle was a silly cow. Like; "A Golden Cow." She said; "I am Yahweh, and you, are bent!"

I hated Judas. I said; "This bastard will kill us!! Don't you understand he is bent??!! He said I am black Miss!!! He says; (in whispers)'You're sexually shit...' (!!))"

Zarathustra carries the corpse for miles. Judas is the corpse.

Yeshua said; "Dad...we've gathered men..." He gathered Lunatics...a down-going.

I heard; "We're shit." They said; "We are going to fight for God."

When I said I had killed the devil, he laughed..."Killing this devil is shit!! Why did we kill it?? We wanted it to heat!!"

I hated all of them, thrice, so I denied them, I hate boys, thrice, and left, so I died, I didn't take that holiday to greece...thus goeth he willingly over the
bridge.

The Holiday in Greece:

My Big Fat Greek Wedding.

They make me marry Gomez...but I hear;

Luigi 'Gabriel' Amaros has married -/-A girl.

It's my family. Gomez is the apple because he is queer, and the oranges are lesbians. I was fifteen and they make me get married to a man.

Mum beats Mannie, she bites me!! She goes absolutely insane, and pulls her hair and drags her across floors...running away from Mum is a routine game.

23 AD.

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Eight Miles High//The Golden Earring

I found this record in the charity shop, and stuck on the second sides halfhour song...I can draw this...

I'm in the middle of a little room, my hair is long and dyed red, I'm wearing a black cord band round my forehead, I'm wearing a black kaftan, and black trousers, with purple/pink embroidery on the edges...the music comes from my soul!!! I'm dancing, shaking myself, the girls are round me, some of them look naked, they are in a semi-circle, wiggling to the ancient israeli music that fills the room (they are circa 24 AD,lifting up their hands, dancing in a 1970's style...full of the spirit!, doing the fishy shooshoos, something I'd be wary of here, but there is never a party here to compare to this, it takes prepartion, the rock music bgins, it's hit on the one song on the vinyl's second side, these guys are famous disciples and the woman are followers of Jesus, from his time... an ancient sanskritt passage has been released to us in gold light, it fills us, we are dancing and praying him, Abe is there rolling around on a sofa, having too much fun, in a bright purple headdress; crying and laughing, "Father! Forgive me!!" He is on his favourite, beeeerr, best beer is from planet jesus...the music is colossal, Jesus is hearing Father and he's gone, he is in wonder at the holy light, jewish holyguys dance in, spinning, through the door, and dance out again, there is no sex here, I am writing vedas high, we see many men climb, because we are crying Zion to Israel, down below, the kids are outside, with the mums, in daylight, I spend some time with the kids, showing them how to quickly string a succession of arrows, and to shoot them from the bows...the party lasts eight days, I'm here now, walking through a supermarket trying to remember, but it's too, we have the Light I want the secret!!

I've bullied today, but, I've seen this...God was something we thought said No. When a Rebbe cried Ribbono Shel Olam he was crying; "Mother, I want you." But this, we died, So when we climbed the ladder we said:

@Take us to four worlds!! Ribbono! Ribbono!! Let me fail!! Tell Mother fail!! Let me free worlds!! Let me become another soul!!: And so we enjoyed falling, we enjoyed being pushed away and flying through the air into hail...Thou have brought evil to us, it is we who are Love, we will cry we defy!!

The party Vedas, says, Become Mine...it says, we have ever died. Because the secret, was; To Bride. Give heathen bride and we will die. Never call a light man, we are only for the High. The high is special Jesus, he never asked why, because he was sure of Death. He sought to fly, this is father's death. Why not fly?

I am beating the drums, I'm shaking my boobs like a mad...Abe cried forth, Sail!! Tell the Arabians Hail!!! L. cried Now!!! Now!!! Young women were in tears;

They are too want for GOD. Their God is HIS. They party to his, when we party, we say, "Sink His!! I want foot!!" We say I want to hate...

The men get too near, and bang! in white light, they are out the door, still spinning round...I played a note, each note went higher, the party ended on a note, Abe left on the second night, because he could see God lies, on Earth and he went to find soul...I could see death, I'm howling, she's growling, I'm growling the song in her face, I'm tickling her, she's whizzing, I keep getting this odd thing downstairs, whereupon I'm insanely pushing my pelvis too and thro, and falling about the room...the women tickle, I scream...

One of the Songs that appeared at the party--Let me die!! Let me die!!!
I also love circa; 1820's, those dances with untouched fingers, ha! Adam and the Ants, gave me recollection of wearing breeches, shooting pistols at the floor, and dancing with french girls!! I'm dancing in dirty alleys, I love remembering this!!!! Diary of today: And now I have no hair!! short back and sides, shaved to a grade 4, and little spiky dyed black bits on top...And I woke up to kiss Ellen Degeneres' wife's armpit, this morning, because I think they were calling me....ha!....well, stop. And my sisters wigs!! Big Lilac wigs and Russian communist soldiers hats!!)

I am reading the BOOK OF MORMON! Yes, it's all about alien worlds...I am God, I am also the abominable church!! Emeeshi found the town, Emelbert, heard me say some silly word and named it Nephi!!